Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Grew up your middle class girl...

I grew up in your typical middle class family. Mother & father had been HS sweethearts. I have 1 brother. They are very conservative and I was always the black sheep of the family. I found anyway to break away from the bullshit. Learned the only way I could live my life was to lie to them and go for it. I was raised with an artistic mother who suffered from anxiety and who was held back by a man who grew up in a Southern Baptist family. It was an interesting mix. Both my parents are very intelligent and they decided when they were married that they did not believe in religion. I was raised an atheist. It was a confusing existence. To be raised by parents who were not religious but had the morals of a very religious family. My mother was a sexual woman who tried hard to keep in shape but she also had to adhere to my father's conservative views. I would hear them having sex as a kid through the vents of my room...lol. Your typical story..when I was 13 I found sex pics of my mother with my father..they were polaroids. They did not ever talk to me about sex. I was the girl. My brother was treated very differently..he was the man. I explored my sexuality in my own way. I masturbated all the time, I kissed a girl when I was 9. My first sexual experience with a boy was oral and I loved it. I could not get enough of it. I had to hide my sexual existence from my family. By the time they found out I was not a virgin, I was in college. I had already been with over 20 men by that time. My sexuality was my own. It is something that has always empowered me. Made me feel free and like a woman.

Welcome to my blog....

Hope you enjoy all the interesting stories and adventures that myself and my hubby call our life.

We are a happily married couple with a freaky side. We entered the swinger lifestyle a little over 2 years ago. Our lives have changed drastically over the last 2 years and I can say only for the better. As all couples go through "drama", so do we but we always deal with it and learn from our experiences. MrSiren is my soul mate and best friend. He is the one man who gets me.

Throughout this blog, I will be telling you about my experiences in the lifestyle and how I have come to where I am today. A confident, sexual woman. A web cam host & an aspiring porn star. This is not something that happened overnight. It is something that has taken years to get to and realization of who I really am as a person. Hope you enjoy the adventures.